LOL!!! This is awesome!! It made me giggle!

Todays post by the Debonaire from this site

Look at it! Its funny!

Another awesome video!

Obama said some awesome things in the video that pertain to many people. Not just gays. Watch it! I don't care for him, but I respect and love that he took the time to say this.

Another Suicide........

First off I am sorry that I haven't been posting a lot. It's midterm time... YAY!!!! But anyways.. The reason I am writing today.

Okay... I'm confused here people.. Another suicide... really.... We need to keep an eye out for these kids.. Because they are either not looking for help, or they don't know we can help... Lets please help them... One of those kids could have been our future Harvey Milk, or Martin Luther King Jr.

This is both a selfish and selfless fight. Selfish because we need these kids to hang tough and to stick it out to see how amazing life can be. Plus lets admit it, we need the surplus numbers showing that we are not an oddity, but a naturally occurring and normal awesome breed of human.. (Goofy sentence I know) Selfless because again we need to show them that life is worth it, and it does get better. And lets face it, saving a human life is the ultimate act of selflessness. And someday these kids will be so happy that they failed at this one thing... Suicide... Lets help out our youngsters. Wearing purple was a good start, but exposure and constant support is what they really need!

And even though I already posted it. I am going to repost my anti-suicide rant from the other week again on this post. So even though you already read it , read it again. And if you didn't shame on you... Read it now, pass it on. Someone needs to get through to these kids, and we are going have to use different methods and tactics to get through to them. And if my little rant can get through to some kid. Then that is one more kid who is going to be around to see us get our rights that we deserve! If you want to read it on its original post, its the 2nd part of my coming out story. And please feel free to read that too. My story isn't awful, but it hasn't been filled with overwhelming support either so...

 My Anti-Suicide Message

And this is my piece on that. Change someone's view on gays on a case by case basis. That is what it is going to take to do anything with the current view on gays in America. I am not a typical lesbian, I jokingly refer to myself as an undercover lezzie. I can work on cars, houses and such. I choose not to. I'm not that into sports, but the Cowboys are my team and always have been (even though I have no clue what their standing and scores are). I am liberal, but I do have my conservative streaks. I have long hair, wear make-up, like heels and dressing in a business causal style, hate dresses and skirts and love the arts.

 But those are my quirks, not my identity. If someone makes fun of you for your quirks, they are not worth your time or your life! I am sick and tired of hearing of these teen suicides. 13!!! 13 years old and dead and in the ground because they felt they had no other alternative. These are the kids of the Internet. They should know that all they have to do is google "suicide helpline", "gay helplines", "dealing with bullying" Or whatever.
If you, the person who is reading this are thinking of suicide, don't you dare think about it. It's a fucking waste! You are worth so much more than a bullet, noose, bridge or whatever. Don't fucking do it!! College, High school and junior high are such a small part of your life. It does end, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. If you have to, to be safe, go back into the closet, transfer schools until it is safe for you to come out. Get out of the Midwest, south, military or wherever you are. Taking your own life is so fucking stupid and weak. You are strong and proud of who you are!! Don't let those homophobic, lame losers dictate who you are!! Don't end up on a news story, as another suicide statistic. Be the statistic for the survivors, be one of the strong who can help someone else who is where you were. You CAN handle it. Death is not the way!!

The only way we are going to get the rights that we deserve. And the open lifestyle we deserve is if we prove that we are not morally corrupt, wayward or whatever the bible thumpers are throwing at us today. I work with a severe christian. And all I say to her is I agree to disagree with you. And when you can come up with a non-religious reason for us to not get married or have equal rights. Then I will listen, because there is nothing wrong with who I am. I am an amazing person. I am a good mother. I am a equal citizen. I deserve my rights too! And then, I act like myself around her. Because in the end actions speak louder than words. And you know what, she doesn't throw religion in my face anymore. She keeps it to herself, because it is her opinion and nothing else. Homophobia is an awful opinion, but people will have it. We just have to get these people to stop trying to pass their opinions as laws.

My Future Tat!

Hey all. The picture doesn't do the drawing justice. But this is what I'm going to do for my sleeve next tax refund time. I might change the horseshoe though.... Or no horseshoe... Not sure about that yet part yet... Anyways I love the sparrow, it's awesome!

The little one I did in May of this year. But I wanted to blow it up. So yesterday I did!

Wacky Notes from my Physical Anthropology Class

Okay.. So I'm taking Physical Anthropology this semester right. And we are in the primate section right now. This is freaking hilarious and made me giggle uncontrollably. Apparently monkeys are actually, and quite literally gay! What!!! I know!! So check this out.

The Savanna Baboon.... The dominant males make this known to the subordinates by mounting them anally... And jumping on their ass.

The Chimpanzee males want nothing to do with the females except during mating season. The rest of the time the hug and snuggle each other and groom each other... ALOT!

The female babono (pygmy chimpanzee) likes to snuggle and rub their va-jays during feeding times and before and after they copulate..... This was really all in my textbook...

I have 2 things to say on this...

1. We are decended from Chimpanzees.

2. Our fucking ancestors didn't have a problem with it, obviously it is natural. Quit putting your blind faith into a book that has been rewritten who knows how many times. By every ruler who adapts the new religion to theirs to avoid being killed.

Take that homophobes!! LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL!!!!

(Yes I know this is really random even by my standards, but I had to share it!)

Watch this video!!!

We need more people like this guy! Someone who uses their position for the good of all and not just themselves! I hope no one punishes him for his bravery!

Watch this video! Civil Right Video that's awesome!

What is with kids today?

Hey All!

Ok.. So while I was work today, a bunch of teenie bopper girls swarmed the store buying toilet paper, candy and god knows what else! (Probably cheerleaders!) Now this was at like 1am.. I remember back when I was that age, we were not at fucking walmart at 1 in the morning. And buying tp... Seriously!! What the fuck??!! Who does that? Thats like cow tipping, or plastic wrapping someone's car!! And during the summer, you know when school was out. They were in the freaking store until 4am sometimes. Again... I remember not doing that. We were not that lame. We were either at a friends house drinking, having some form of sex, smoking... Or I dunno... Sleeping... What is wrong with kids today, where they have to hang out at a store in the middle of the night. Sitting in the middle of an aisle in a circle. I was waiting for them to sing something I swear. Wheres the campfire and the smores? Fucking kids! I must have been a cool kid or something, because I (and most of you) would NEVER hang out at a fucking walmart. So lame....

(OMG!! DID I REALLY JUST SAY THAT!!!! AAAHHHHHH!!!!! I'M OLD!!!!)

On a side note... It's finally cooling down!!! Thank you weather imps for listening!!!

Happy National Coming Out Day!!

Okay.. So first thing.. That is just fun to say, and my classmates thought I was a goof for saying it. I'm sure of it! But seriously, I'm happy to be myself, be open about my sexuality, and be who I am. And that's really what this day is about. It's about the day that you said, "Know what.. This is who I am, and I am proud to be gay!"

And on a side note..... I have a letter to the weather fairies, or imps in California's case.

Dear Weather Imps,

It is October!!! It is supposed to be cool, and rainy and freaking fall for California. What is with this almost 90 degrees crap! I am sure that alot of people agree with me on this. We would like to turn off the a/c for the season. LET US!! It's time for the heater and bitching about how cold and wet it is!! I understand that you thought that the gays might enjoy a warm day, so that the gay boys could go frolick and so that the lezzies could go off-road or something. But some of us (ME) would like to wear that really cute flannel shirt I bought and flash my cleavege in a delicious way. LET US!! Bring on the rain, so that our lakes will be nice and full NEXT YEAR WHEN IT IS SUMMER, and then we will be frolicking in bikinis. But right now, its fall. Let it be be fall. Please!!

Love, Mary!!

Have a great day everybody!!!

Coming Out Story

Part 1 Coming Out Story

I have been out for 2 years. I was 23 when I came out, looking back I really should have known at a much younger age that I was gay. But I firmly believe that things happen for a reason, and I know that I am much more psychologically able to handle the effects of coming out now instead of then. I am divorced, and yes I do have a daughter.  So here we go.

Looking back I can remember having crushes and wanting to be close to my "girl" friends back in grade school. But for some reason I always thought that this was normal. Didn't everybody find their friends to be cute? Be slightly jealous of their crushes boyfriends? I never really understood the whole deal about falling in love with a boy. It sounded limiting, and boring to me. Who wants to be a housewife, raise a bunch of kids, and cook dinner for a guy with a beer belly? I didn't want or pursue any of these things.

In high school I was known as the kinda popular girl, with a counselor for a mom, that only the smart kids were brave enough to be friends with. Thanks mom. I dated a few guys, but not really. My friends thought that it was odd that I didn't want a boyfriend, a husband and kids. So I ended up dating these guys to appear normal, and yes sometimes I was turned on when we kissed. But nothing like what I experience when I make out or mess around or make love to a girl.

I didn't lose my virginity in high school. And at my high school, Rio Linda Senior High School, we didn't have a huge gay population. And the few gays we did have were mostly scary, sorry ladies, but we did have a very adorable gay guy in my graduating class. And I respect the hell out of that guy and those ladies for coming out so young!

So after high school I did end up dating a guy off and on for a few years, but we broke up for good when he almost proposed.. So glad that didn't happen! At 19, I enlisted in the US Navy, these were my reasons, and no I didn't know about the Don't Ask, Don't Tell policy then. I wanted to get out of California and away from everybody who knew me. What I truly wanted was to be a different person, and the only way I knew how was to get the hell out of here! So I did, and I was stationed in Norfolk, VA for 4 years.

Now any normal, non-shy person, they would have treated this like college. Because lets be honest here, the military is like one huge sorority, fraternity. I treated it as a job, made many friends, drank a lot! But I was scared of that damn policy, even though we all knew that the other Mary in my shop was an open bisexual, who brought her girlfriend to command functions. I was and still am a worrier, which is bad and I know this by the way. So I didn't do anything about exploring my sexuality, I just clung to the bisexual label for dear life.

I ended up meeting a guy, found out I was pregnant, married him. Marrying him was the biggest mistake of my life. I knew after a week that I made the biggest mistake. And when I asked my family what to do, they told me to stay married, after a year it would get better. So this year marker came and went, and things magically didn't get better. Crazy I know! Around this time I sat him down and told him I wanted a divorce, he wanted to know why. And at this time I didn't have an answer. So we tried to make it work. But all that time I was trying to figure out what was making me so miserable and ready to get another drink.

Around the time my daughter was going to turn a year old, after months of soul searching, I finally figured it out people. I was a huge lezzie. And yes I had never slept or really messed around with a girl before coming out. I had to sit my ex down again, but this time I had an answer. I'm gay. I can't be married to you, make you and my daughter miserable because I'm not happy with myself. Lets just say it was a very difficult 2 years after that, but now we are civil, and our daughter has 2 parents who love her very much. So yes I was out of the closet without actually messing around an actual woman.

When I did come out, I told 4 people other than my ex. My friend Whitney from boot camp, who is awesome and extremely supporting, my favorite Aunt, my mom and my then best friend from high school. My Aunt said, "whatever makes you happy Mary is fine with me." My mom, "Did you think this through, are you sure?" Um yes duh! And my 2 friends, "You didn't know?"

Pretty much anybody who really knew me wasn't surprised. My mom is so-so with it. She used to ask me if I was dating a guy, I'd say "hell no!". And then it turned into, " You should date a guy so you can have another baby." .....What??? Yes I know, it's crazy. But I heard this off and on for a long time. Only recently has she asked if I have met any women, I should go to a gay bar... Blah blah blah blah.

My friends and family are for the most part okay with my being gay, most have never met an ex-girlfriend of mine. Because we never got that serious. But I do have awesome grandparents, who take me to go see "The Kids Are Going To Be Alright". Which is really awesome!

I have never met or encountered ugly homophobia. I have been stared at when I was out with an ex. I am very open about who I am, and I should be allowed to kiss or hold my girl in public. Especially if that heterosexual couple can all but fuck in public. I have never gone to gay bar, or gone to a gay parade, so I have never literally ran into anti-gay people. But I do encounter them in my day to day life.

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Part 2 My Anti-Suicide Message

And this is my piece on that. Change someone's view on gays on a case by case basis. That is what it is going to take to do anything with the current view on gays in America. I am not a typical lesbian, I jokingly refer to myself as an undercover lezzie. I can work on cars, houses and such. I choose not to. I'm not that into sports, but the Cowboys are my team and always have been (even though I have no clue what their standing and scores are). I am liberal, but I do have my conservative streaks. I have long hair, wear make-up, like heels and dressing in a business causal style, hate dresses and skirts and love the arts.

 But those are my quirks, not my identity. If someone makes fun of you for your quirks, they are not worth your time or your life! I am sick and tired of hearing of these teen suicides. 13!!! 13 years old and dead and in the ground because they felt they had no other alternative. These are the kids of the Internet. They should know that all they have to do is google "suicide helpline", "gay helplines", "dealing with bullying" Or whatever.

If you, the person who is reading this are thinking of suicide, don't you dare think about it. It's a fucking waste! You are worth so much more than a bullet, noose, bridge or whatever. Don't fucking do it!! High school and junior high are such a small part of your life. It does end, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. If you have to, to be safe, go back into the closet, transfer schools until it is safe for you to come out. Get out of the Midwest, south, military or wherever you are. Taking your own life is so fucking stupid and weak. You are strong and proud of who you are!! Don't let those homophobic, lame losers dictate who you are!! Don't end up on a news story, as another suicide statistic. Be the statistic for the survivors, be one of the strong who can help someone else who is where you were. You CAN handle it. Death is not the way!!

The only way we are going to get the rights that we deserve. And the open lifestyle we deserve is if we prove that we are not morally corrupt, wayward or whatever the bible thumpers are throwing at us today. I work with a severe christian. And all I say to her is I agree to disagree with you. And when you can come up with a non-religious reason for us to not get married or have equal rights. Then I will listen, because there is nothing wrong with who I am. I am an amazing person. I am a good mother. I am a equal citizen. I deserve me rights too! And then, I act like myself around her. Because in the end actions speak louder than words. And you know what, she doesn't throw religion in my face anymore. She keeps it to herself, because it is her opinion and nothing else. Homophobia is an awful opinion, but people will have it. We just have to get these people to stop trying to pass their opinions as laws.

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So that's my story and message. Sorry it was so long, but I have been wanting to scream out that message for a while now! I hope this can help somebody or anybody. Feel free to message me if you need help dealing with your situation. And please no guys hitting on me, or bible thumpers harassing me. I will block you.

New Blog!!

Hey All!! So this is frustrating!! I had a blog already, but due to (A) Never logging in and consequently forgetting my log in info, (B) The blog spot system can't find me. I had to start another blog. So I am sorry that there are now 2 of these. And for all the people who did read my previous blog, THANKS!!! I didn't realize there were people actually reading it! Anyways I'll try to keep up with this one!! Later all!